Dear Friend,

I am sorry I have to tell you in this way so publicly, but I know not how else to tell you. It pains me that we have grown apart and cannot speak to each other, but I wanted to let you know how proud I am of you for finally standing up for something in your life. I think I knew that one day it would all come down to this... however, I didn't want to believe it. I hope and pray that one day all will be resolved and we can be friends once again, but I know that for now it is not possible. Do I know if you will ever see this? No, but what I do know is that I will forever be glad that we shared those many memories together. I want you to know that no matter what happens you will always be the same to me. I will never think any less of you. Again, I apologize that this is so public for many people to see it online, but I know not how else to tell you! I wish you the best in all of your pursuits in life and all the happiness life can bring you!
Frances

I do it because I want to...

So, over the past month I have been putting many of my statuses in french. One because I know there are people out there that are too lazy to translate it and two because I want to better my french. I have also become extremely vague... like I used to name people and now I just say him or her and people are dying to know who and I choose not to tell them more than half the time. Why am I so secretive about my life now? Well, I've gotten tired of people telling me exactly how I should live it and what I am doing right and/or wrong all the time. More often they tell me what I'm doing wrong. It gets irritating cause truthfully I don't care what they think, but at the same time I do. Everyone cares what others think about them.

A brief little story... this girl likes this guy, but this guy is currently dating another girl. so, this girl goes and spends time with another guy and others begin to talk. The original girl doesn't get why people can't just accept the fact that they are JUST friends... apparently it is not possible for two people of opposite sex to just be friends without one of them having an attraction. Well, original girl REALLY likes original guy... so, why would she go off and want to do something with second guy? Yeah, this has been ailing me for a while. I get really irritated over it, but meh.

J'écris en français pour bug certaines personnes parce qu'ils ne réalisent pas que la technologie qu'ils peuvent maintenant traduiretout cela avec le clic d'un bouton! Personnes gravement ...Obtenez une vie

what is in a friend?

I've been thinking tons lately about the word "friend" it such a simple word, but yet so very complicated at the same time. Dictionary.com describes friend as : http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/friend. However, if you think about the way we (as a society) tend to use the word loosely. A friend will come into your life, and though you may stray from each other they would still be there if you happened to get into a pickle.

Currently I'm working on a story, and I've been thinking about my main character and how she has this friend that has never truly been there for her. However, she calls this friend her best friend. Does that make any sense? Well folks, this is how my life once was. I had this friend that I thought would do anything for me, but it turns out that was untrue. Now, I have a friend I can rely on. A friend will be there for you through thick and through thin. I now realize that. I am grateful to those true friends I have had throughout my life (even if we don't talk as much as I used to).

I'm not sure if I have put this song up or not, but I feel like it applies to a situation that I have been in within the past year.

3 Kings Day!

HAPPY 3 Kings Day everyone! It is believed that this is the day that the Three Kings visited the Christ child. Christ was at this time about 3 years old. It is interesting to me how 3 is a very significant number in the scriptures. :)  Matthew 2 Here is the reference for when the three Kings visited Christ.

Now, in honor of an awesome weekend to start off Mardi Gras here are some pictures to enjoy.

HAPPY MARDI GRAS YA'LL!

a new year, but same old Frankie

I don't like to talk about my problems and put them out there for the whole world to know about, but this past year was a true growing experience for me. At the beginning of 2011 I wanted nothing more than to just crawl in a hole and never come out. I began to distance myself from several of my friends, and just really wanted to be left alone. I could see myself becoming extremely depressed, but didn't care at the time. Why? Because I was beginning to lose two people I felt were amazing friends because of one circumstance. I take responsibility for my faults in the entire matter, but looking back I don't regret the decisions I made. Things began to turn around for me when I first went to Colorado back in May... things had begun escalating to the point where I just couldn't handle it any more. I decided to just help my grandmother and just be away from the drama that was going on in my life at that point. When I came back to Utah I had made a decision and that decision was to be social where I was. This was different this time because usually I would have no problem making friends and being social, but due to the fact that I was now afraid of betraying or hurting people I wanted to be an introvert so as to not harm anyone else. What I didn't realize is that I was hurting myself more. One day my brother was about to go out with some friends, and says... "can my sister come too?" I will never forget that kind act my brother showed me because I have been able to become friends with some of the most amazing people I have ever met. The best part of it is that they aren't perfect, and they know that, but they live day in and day out striving to become better. Soon, I decided I needed to go back to the Singles Ward. As I started going to activities a smile came back to my face. I met even more amazing people that I am proud to call my friends. I realize now that closing yourself off from the world is never the answer. I may have lost a couple of friends that I thought I could always turn to, but in return I reconnected with some and met so many more new friends! I can even talk about this even though it still hurts with all those many trials that happen.

Now, all of this being said... to those two friends I feel like I have lost: if you ever decide you would like to be friends again I will accept it with open arms. Why? Because I want to live my life as Christ lived His.

Next, to those few friends I have been able to reconnect with in the past year... thank you for always being so  amazing. Thank you for one day just texting me out of the blue to ask how I was and if I wanted to hang out. Thank you for calling me on weekends to make me laugh or smile.

Finally, to all of you that I have met since I moved down to Bountiful. You are some of the best people I have ever met. Despite all the trials you have been through in life, and despite that which you may still be dealing with I thank you for being kind and allowing me to become me again. You have made a true smile return to my face and to where I enjoy life all the much more.