LITTLE GIRL AND BOY IN AN ADVENTUROUS WORLD!
Thursday, June 28, 2007
I HOPE YOU HAVE THE TIME OF YOUR LIFE!
Yesterday was Jonathan and Mike's birthday & the day Joseph Smith died... kinda crazy how life goes on! I miss my bubba! Yeah, this isn't as long as these things usually are, but I don't feel like talking too much!
Saturday, June 23, 2007
Feelings every where!
FIRST... IT'S MY PARENTS 29th Anniversery!
I'm not really sure how to feel right now! I have so many different feelings and none of them are the exact ones that I want! This happens to me too much! I end up having a night that puts me down! I wish it didn't! It upsets me too much!
Today, I woke up at 6:30ish and had to go to the bathroom and I felt sick on top of that! Then, I went back to sleep and got up at 9:30 and started on homework! Around 11:30 Bonnie called me so we could got get a Bride's maid's dress sized for me! That was pretty fun! I still can't believe my best friend is gunna get married! I guess it would be weird if I did too! I sometimes wish I could find the right guy, but I doubt it will come to you when you look... it never does! Life is never how it should be! Anyways, back to my day! I came home and watched some O.C. and it made me cry! I haven't cried while watching the O.C. in a while! I don't know what's gotten into me lately! Nothing ever seems right! And when it does I do something so stupid that it baffles me! Anyways, again back to my day! I then went to Guitars Unplugged at 7:30 it started at 8:00! And it was awesome... there is always a dance afterwards and well, I wanted to dance one slow song with Ryan, but the time the one came up Ashley had brought me some where else and he was dancing with this other girl! Which should be totally fine by me! Why I care I don't know! I mean... I shouldn't be jealous! IT'S LAME! I HATE IT! I don't know him that well... I'm so mad at myself right now! I just want to cry, but at the same time hit something! Why does life go like this for me! I wish I could talk to Ryan about all this, but I can't... I'm too scared! I don't think highly of myself like I should! I play an act that isn't me, or at leasts it's not how I feel at that moment! I wish it wasn't like that! I hate this feeling inside of me! I'm jealous and I hate it! I've only known him for what 3 weeks or is it 4 now? I dunno! I've lost count, but it shouldn't be this stupid! I shouldn't even like the boy! But for some reason I just can't not like someone! UGH! I don't know what to do... this sucks!
I'm not really sure how to feel right now! I have so many different feelings and none of them are the exact ones that I want! This happens to me too much! I end up having a night that puts me down! I wish it didn't! It upsets me too much!
Today, I woke up at 6:30ish and had to go to the bathroom and I felt sick on top of that! Then, I went back to sleep and got up at 9:30 and started on homework! Around 11:30 Bonnie called me so we could got get a Bride's maid's dress sized for me! That was pretty fun! I still can't believe my best friend is gunna get married! I guess it would be weird if I did too! I sometimes wish I could find the right guy, but I doubt it will come to you when you look... it never does! Life is never how it should be! Anyways, back to my day! I came home and watched some O.C. and it made me cry! I haven't cried while watching the O.C. in a while! I don't know what's gotten into me lately! Nothing ever seems right! And when it does I do something so stupid that it baffles me! Anyways, again back to my day! I then went to Guitars Unplugged at 7:30 it started at 8:00! And it was awesome... there is always a dance afterwards and well, I wanted to dance one slow song with Ryan, but the time the one came up Ashley had brought me some where else and he was dancing with this other girl! Which should be totally fine by me! Why I care I don't know! I mean... I shouldn't be jealous! IT'S LAME! I HATE IT! I don't know him that well... I'm so mad at myself right now! I just want to cry, but at the same time hit something! Why does life go like this for me! I wish I could talk to Ryan about all this, but I can't... I'm too scared! I don't think highly of myself like I should! I play an act that isn't me, or at leasts it's not how I feel at that moment! I wish it wasn't like that! I hate this feeling inside of me! I'm jealous and I hate it! I've only known him for what 3 weeks or is it 4 now? I dunno! I've lost count, but it shouldn't be this stupid! I shouldn't even like the boy! But for some reason I just can't not like someone! UGH! I don't know what to do... this sucks!
Friday, June 15, 2007
OH HAPPY DAY!!!!!
So, first... today is my big brother's 26th Birthday... Happy Birthday to him! :) Secondly, tonight I am going to see Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer tonight! I am soooo super excited! I can't wait! I mean I am going with a guy, but come on... Chris Evans (Johnny Storm) is going to be on the screen so, I think I'll be paying more attention to the movie! HAHA! I am glad I get to go with Ryan though! I don't think I've mentioned him in here... I met him 2 weeks ago! Well, almost! LOL! He's so sweet! Mostly right now we're just friends, but maybe something will happen between us... I dunno, but I'm definately not gunna rush anything! LOL! I can't believe how happy I am right now! I am more excited than anything about the movie tonight... WOOT! HEEHEE!
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