Quarantined with Heart Disease

So, I figure it's time to update the world even though most of the world is quarantined just like us. Well, here is how our life has been going. As many know we have had a couple living with us for the past year and a half (friends of ours). They have had tough times with jobs, but at the beginning of March he was able to make sure he could work from home for my sake (of which I am so grateful).

Now, me and Jordan...
 On March 18th I woke up around 3:30 with my back hurting and causing me some chest pain. Next, on that same day we had a 5.7 earthquake, and because of everything I ended up going to the ER just to make sure my heart was okay. Everything is fine with my heart by the way. :) All of that stress made it to where I now and since am quarantined at home until all this over. When will it be over? Who knows? My work has made it possible where I have started to work from home, and piloted working from home to where more teachers are doing it now. I just hope they continue to do it well. That same week March 20th. Jordan's boss officially helped in every way to get him to work from home. If he has to go into work it's usually for over time. We haven't been spending as much money on gas since we're always at home so during this time we have been able to save a ton! Taking that as a very big advantage.
Our dogs have definitely loved having us around, and now that we are having church from home we are constantly trying to spend time with each other. Overall, I have been so grateful that I'm not alone during all of this, and that through every change and challenge I have Jordan by my side. It stinks with my heart disease that I can't go see my family or his family, but all in all we are so grateful that we have each other. We also really love our dogs, and that they are so patient (well, for the most part) while we are working. I call them my coworkers and have gotten some pretty funny pictures. Jordan and I also try to dress up for church each week even though we're still in our home. It really helps us.

I miss everyone out there, and wonder why sometimes I'm so weird about things. However, GOD BLESS all of us during this time. If you read this... please leave a message on how you are doing during this time.



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In Life

In life you tend to remember important dates. Where you were when something big happened, or where you were when you found out something that would alter your life.

This is something I've been thinking a ton about lately. 

Recently at Sylvan I had the chance to reflect on where I was when I heard the news about 9/11/01. Sitting next to me at the same exact moment was someone my age who was there watching the events unfold in front of her eyes. That blew my mind at the time. How real that must continue to feel for her, and how brave I thought she was for talking about it. Not too soon after that moment came another moment. I received an email from my sister about a death of a friend to their family. It made me reflect on everyone I have ever known to die in a car accident, from illness (yes suicide is an illness), or even "old age". 

What do we do when we hear about someone dying? Where do we go? Who do we turn to?

I remember a few deaths that have happened during my life, but one stands out to me more than others. I think for me it was the turning point in how I handled death. No, my feelings don't change and some are definitely harder than others, but this one death my freshman year of high school (same year as 9/11) helped me realize grieving is good and definitely okay. 

I think another time when I realized something about death is when I myself was so close to it. In May 2015 I began to get sick. It kept getting worse, and we did not know what was wrong. Until we discovered my heart issue about a week or so before my wedding. I should have died the doctor told me. I had a heart attack. But I realized something else that day about death… there are always two choices. I could have chosen that day to give up, but I didn't. I fought. 

I think in all my rambling the most important thing is that we must be kind and love each other. Hold your loved ones a little tighter, and maybe just maybe call up that one person you haven't spoken to in years cause you never actually know when it will be the last time you speak to them in this life. 

10 years in review

So, it's taken me over a week to write this post cause life can be busy (even when it's not it is). You'll notice there are pictures of just me and then there are pictures of just Jordan. That is because over the last ten years we have only known each other for part of that. This next year will make our 4th Wedding Anniversary and in December it will make five years since we've known each other. I don't know if it was "love at first sight" for either of us, but we now know we were meant to be with each other for eternity. In the past ten years Jordan graduated from high school and went on his mission, and I graduated from college and began to start my career. As many already know we met through a mutual friend whom we both met in those ten years. Now, me being a Louisiana girl I never thought I would be living in Utah after college and marry a Utah boy, but I'm glad I did. In the few years Jordan and I have been together we found out about my heart condition, and got two dogs and a house! I wouldn't have our life any other way. Jordan is my big goober and I love adventures with him! :)

Life is not easy, but it is worth it.

So, a couple of months ago I mentioned that I had gotten a new job, and Jordan had switched to a new shift at work. Well, things for me didn't work out, and I found myself again needing a new job. I contacted my former boss at Sylvan and was immediately hired. It's not perfect, but it'll do for now. But life isn't easy, every time you turn something happens that lays you flat and it's hard, but I'm grateful for all the many blessings I have, and the opportunities that I have in life. I don't post a ton about my life these days. I also certainly don't let everyone know what is always going on, or the hurt I feel inside. People always think they understand mine and Jordan's whole not being able to have a child, but they don't. I was just speaking with my mom about this... People always turn to infertility, but my issue is definitely not that... I mean... if God allowed I could have a kid, but God doesn't allow that right now. My heart isn't strong enough, and I'm getting there, but it will take a bit. Well, I don't know what else to say, or what else I want to say. BUT I do know I'm grateful for Jordan and how much he means to me despite our troubles that we go through. Enjoy some pics of our crazy life together.