8!!! OH MY!

So, not only is today Valentine's Day, but my nephew, Michael, got baptized today! I couldn't be there for it because school is very very important and I had to be here instead! It's all good though. I guess the weirdest part is knowing that my whole family is together and not being there with them. I love them so much! They are very important to me & I am so glad I get to spend eternity with them! That's a really long time! :D I can't believe that 8 years ago is when my sister's life changed forever! haha! Well, that's all I have to say for now! I love that my lappy is working! Gotta jet! :D

I will try to fix you...

So, I know it sounds really lame, but the past few days I've had dreams about my best friend. In one of them it was like I lost him forever and it wasn't to death... it was to something much much worse. I wasn't sure how to take it all day long and then I realized that truly I hadn't lost him at all, and that he would continue to serve his mission faithfully and whole heartedly. Well, this morning I had another dream with him and it was like a picture perfect experience and I have just been inspired so much that I feel this bond with him. The hardest thing for me lately has been to accept this because well I keep thinking about things my family says. However, I haven't exactly told them everything because I guess I'm afraid. Last week I was talking to my oldest sister when she was telling me that she didn't want to see me get hurt by him again, and I realized that once before when I was talking my oldest brother about everything. It's the weirdest thing for me because for some reason through every hard trial with him we've stayed friends. I keep talking to my roommates-- well, mostly Tiffany... about it and I just feel like there is something amazing about this guy I dated a few years ago. For one I'm truly realizing how missions are amazing for people and those who go on one come back stronger. I'm not saying I want to go on a mission because right now the one thing I know is this "Focus on studies for now and everything else in life will work out." Crazy how the Lord gives you revelation before you actually really need it. My dad gave me a Father's blessing just before I came back up this semester and that was said in it. A couple of weeks ago I was searching for some personal revelation and I got 2 thoughts immediately after praying. They were to read my patriarchal blessing and read my father's blessing. So, I did both and felt so much better. I keep finding out how amazing personal revelation is & how important it is for me to keep receiving it. My life is changing so much & there are times where I'm not sure if I can keep up, but I know that if I just hold on & endure to the end I will have blessings poured out upon me. I love my life even with all the tirals and tibulations that I face. :D

So this is the new year?

So this is the new year.
And i don't feel any different.
The clanking of crystal
Explosions off in the distance (in the distance).

So this is the new year
And I have no resolutions
For self assigned penance
For problems with easy solutions
The New Year  by Death Cab for Cutie
So everybody put your best suit or dress on
Let's make believe that we are wealthy for just this once
Lighting firecrackers off on the front lawn
As thirty dialogs bleed into one

I wish the world was flat like the old days
Then i could travel just by folding a map
No more airplanes, or speed trains, or freeways
There'd be no distance that could hold us back.

There'd be no distance that could hold us back [x2]

So this is the new year [x4]

Basically that song describes every new year. Except last year was way different from what I expected, but that's good when it happens right...? I think I will go over some of the events of last year for details please read blog or ask...:

2008 overall

January: 

my mom was in Colorado for New Year's because my nephew, William, had been born on the 29th of December. 

I had decided to go back to live in Rexburg, Idaho... burr... cold decision. Before I left I said goodbye to one of my closest friends because a month later he'd be leaving for his mission in Toulouse, France.

I left to go to Colorado saw my new nephew for the first time & then left for Idaho! :D

President Gordon B. Hinckley 15th President of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints passed away. Jan 27, 2008

February:

President Hinckley's funeral

Rexburg Temple dedicated

I had the best Mardi Gras party ever!!!!!

My best friend went into the MTC on Ash Wednesday and started his mission!

March: 

My grandfather passes away on the 6th at the age of 82.

I go to Colorado for a few days and then to Louisiana for a week and a half....

I was going down to Co at first because my sister, Jeane, was getting out her endownments and my nephew's baby blessing, but since Grandpa passed away we had all 3 in one weekend.

My father gets a call asking him to transfer to SLC... 

I go home to Louisiana for the second to last time...

April:

 I started school & buried myself in it.

May:

My dad moves to Utah & he & John come to visit me for my birthday

MOM COMES TOO!!!!! This was my first birthday since I graduated that I was with my family!

June:

School continues & I apply for fast grad

July:

I'm accepted to fast grad 

and go home to LA for the last time

August:

I help mom pack away things so we can head back to Utah

Louisiana prepares for another hurricane...

September:

Hurricane Gustav makes landfall and does more damge to Baton Rouge

I start another semester and decide when I will definitely graduate

I apply to make my state literacy test

October: 

me & a close friend of mine get into a fight that lasted way too long

I had my last marching band performance ever!

November:

Thanksgiving in Utah with the fam & the excitement that school was almost over

Bubba gets home from Guatemala!

December: 

LA gets a lot of snow for the first time in 20 years & I'm not there to see it...

school gets out for the semester &...

I go to Utah for my first white Christmas ever!

Man, it was an eventful year... crazy!

It's the End of a year...?

So, here we are in December as this year comes to a close. Am I excited? Of course I am! School is good, and overall I can't complain too much about life. There are those little things that bug the crud out of me, but I just get over them and move on with my life. I only have a few more things to get done this week & basically I have to get them done by tomorrow & then I can sort of relax... of course then it's the matter of doing luandry, packing, and cleaning. But I think I can get all that done & be basically happy! Life is grand! I can't believe how much this year has flown by, and how much has happened this past year. First, in January I decided I was going to stay in Rexburg. Weird! Then in February one of my best friends left on his mission. Then, in March my grandpa passed away, and then april I started a new year of school... over the summer I got on fast grad, and now look at me... I have a year left in school... crazy! This next year will be interesting! :D Well, it's almost time for me to go to class... so, ta ta for now!

A Brand New Thought

So, after talking to several people over the past week including my mother about some problems I've been having with others... I came up with a thought I'm really going to try...

NOYB

When wanting to gossip about someone try talking to them about it first to see if it's okay to say what you are wanting to say! ;)

Now, you're probably wondering why I am putting this up... Well, it has recently come to my knowledge how much I'm being talked about behind my back. I'm sitting here wondering if I EVER gave permission to others to talk about me, but then I realize that NO because it's MY life I haven't. I truly am starting to see how bad gossiping is. I have been hurt by it so much over the past few weeks, and I'm not even sure if I'm the one gossipping, but I know I've been gossipped about. Sometimes... even good Gossip can be BAD!!!! See, a year ago I almost dated this guy... he's a really amazing friend of mine and everything, but I feel like it is mine or his place to tell people about how we almosted dated. NOT ANYONE ELSE. Well, someone has been going around talking about me & this guy saying that I still like him, and I thought to myself... isn't that my decision to make? So, last night when going to bed I decided that Gossipping about others is NEVER good... So, I'm going to try from here on out to not gossip about others... not do the "he said, she said" junk... it seriously hurts people & it's not fair! What goes on in another person's life is their business... NOT YOURS... unless they are married to you... lol. Or unless you are really worried about that person, but then you should probably take that to the Lord and have him help you help them... but don't be going to others talking about it. Too many people end up hurt that way, and honestly... I'm sick of being hurt! Anyway, there's my little thought... and hope you enjoyed it! :D