Late Night Ramblings

I don't like getting to personal on here lately cause I feel like people judge you when you get too personal and I don't like being judged, but I can't sleep because of things that have been bugging me lately. The main thing that bugs me... I miss one of my best friends. I haven't spoken to him in a really long time and I wish I could. I remember all these wonderful times and know that things like that can never happen again, and to be perfectly honest it kills me inside. I wonder if I will ever be able to speak to him again and how I can possibly ever tell him how deeply sorry I am. I feel at times like I was there for him when he needed me most, but he can in no way be there for me right now. I guess in reality it is all part of growing up in life. I've learned that the Lord places certain people into our lives at certain times to help us grow from situations. For example, the past two years that I have lived in Bountiful I have met some pretty spectacular people... I'm just ashamed that it has taken me so long to realize it. Yes, I may never speak to that guy ever again, but I will always remember him, and I guess I have to let him go to make room in a way for others in my life... Like the amazing people I have met since graduating from college. I will always thank God for all the wonder people he has placed into my life. He is truly my Father cause he knows exactly who/what I need when I need it/them! There... my late night ramblings...