A long road ahead

It's going to be a long and bumpy road ahead for my family. Grandpa might not have been the kindest man that ever lived, but he truly was an amazing man. I loved him with everything I had. There is a song that my mom had me listen to that reminded her of him. It's called "The Greatest Man I Never Knew" -Reba
My Grandpa was never the type to express his love for all of us, but we knew he cared. He would go to the church and do Family History, but yet he never wanted anyone to know. It was a wonderful experience for me the day that Grandpa asked me what we believed. I recited to him some of the articles of faith. Those really do come in handy. haha. So, Grandpa truly was a wonderful man. One time he played train on the floor with his great grandson, my nephew. I loved every minute of that. Anyway, I'm going to put a picture of Grandma & Grandpa on here! :D

Grandpa dies...

Yesterday my grandfather passed away. It was a huge turning point in my life. I am saddened by this and may need some time.

Dreams

So, My big brother and I have been having a very in depth discussion about dreams & I've come to a very realistic realization. He told me that I should look up dreams in the bible dictionary & then in the french guide to the scriptures... so, I did. In the bible Dictionary it says... "Dreams: One of the means by which God communicates with men." Well, yes, God does communicate with men in that manner, but yet the question is... are all dreams from God? I would say no... The French guide to the scriptures says, " Une des manières utilisées par Dieu pour révéler sa volonté aux hommes. Néanmoins, tous les rêves ne sont pas des révélations. Les rêves inspirés sont le fruit de la foi." which translates to... : "One of the ways used by God to reveal His will to men. Nevertheless, all the dreams are not revelations. The dreams are inspired by the fruit of faith." Well, if you look up faith in the Bible Dictionary it gives several definitions... one that I like says, "Although faith is a gift, it must be cultured and sought after until it grows from a tiny seed to a great tree. The effects if true faith in Jesus Christ include 1)an actual knowledge that the course of life one is pursuing is acceptable to the LORD. 2) a reception of the blessings of the LORD that are available to man in this life; and 3) an assurance of personal salvation in the world to come. These things involve individual and personal testimony, guidance, revelation, and spiritual knowledge. Where there is true faith there are miracles, visions, dreams, healings, and all the gifts of God that He gives to His saints." I guess all in all what this comes down to is that I should have faith if I do happen to receive revelation in a dream, but yet I should also remember that some dreams are well, in the way my brother said it "your mind is playing tricks on you." I know exactly what he means by that because I've had dreams that when I wake up... I think to myself... WHAT IN THE FREAKING WORLD?! It's crazy to think about how your mind really can play tricks on you. Life can truly be amazing and not all at the same time, but what I've learned is that -- that is what makes it all worth it. I am truly thankful for different things in my life, but all in all I wish on certain things too... like I want certain things to happen... I think in many ways that would make me happier, but I guess we as humans always want something more than what we have. Yeah... I guess that's all...

life is crazy & busy as can be!

Oh my gosh! So much is going on and at times I think I may be going insane, but still I'm able to keep my head on straight! So much keeps happening and it's crazy insane... I can't believe that I'm about to go home & then come back here... and see Kevin & then start for school! I register next Monday and I already know what courses I want to take
Early Field 9-11am MWF from Sister Kay
Old Testament 12:45-1:45pm MWF Brother Hayes
Math 306 2-3pm MWF Sister Harris
2nd block American Heritage 3:15-4:20pm daily Brother Henrichsen
Children's Lit 11:30-1 _T_T Sister Hawkes
FA 100
World Civ Online... so basically... I'm going to be taking 18 credits and 7 classes... busy busy me! :D
Life is pretty crazy and fun all at the same time!
I guess that's all for now!

Haunting Dreams

Ok, so the past few nights I've had some dreams that seem just plain crazy. Sunday night I had a dream about my friend Jason Wolgamott & his new wife! I think it still blows my mind that he's married! I haven't talked to him since before the wedding. I hope he got the gift card I sent him and whatnot. It's crazy I feel like it's been forever since I talked to him. I miss him like crazy! Also, the fact that I couldn't go to his wedding just bums me out to the core. He's always been one of my greatest friends! Maybe I should just send him an e-mail and see how he's doing!
The dream I had last night was even crazier... I dreamt about Jonathan. He called me on my cell & asked for Stina's cell #... I was all confused, but of course I'd get it for him. I was just so delighted to hear his voice... it was like every time he called me right before his mission. I didn't think I'd miss him this much. It hurts in so many ways cause I gotta get on with my own life! I guess what's killing me is the fact of everything that's been going on just in the past week! I've been spending so much time with my other best guy friend (Brian). It's not that I don't mind... it's just deep down inside my heart I wish it was someone else... like Kevin. I really miss Kevin... loads, but I know things will be ok cause he'll be home in a month & 8 days! What a great guy he is... I really appreciate everything he's done for me. It's truly amazing! Anyways, I'm not sure what I'm saying... I think I should just de-guy my life... haha... that's impossible... I'm really looking forward to seeing my family soon. And after that like a week later Kev will be home & I'm absolutely ecstatic on seeing him! :D I guess that's all for now!