Is it a lonely world?

I haven't written on this in about a month, and well, things are going okay I guess. School is going GREAT, but the rest of life... well, it's not. I guess if one wants to succeed in school they have to give up the rest of their life. At least that's the way things have seemed for me. I'm succeeding in school and striving to get everything done, and work my tail off, but as for my social life well, it's suffered as of late. There are no guys that I particularly like right now... well, none that I have a crush on at least, and I guess for the first time ever it just seems plain weird to me. I want so bad to just get away and spend time with family that truly some things just stink... I guess. I'm doing the one thing I know how to do, and that is to close myself off and not let people see my real emotions. Well, everyone outside of my family. I would just love to be with them right now, and school prevents me from that. My sister graduated a week ago with her Master's and thanks to technology I was able to watch it via the internet, but other than that it kinda sucks because I wanted to be there with everyone else. I'm so ecstatic that this coming week I will be skipping class for 2 days to go to my cousin's wedding and I can at least see part of my family, and then for the 4th I get to see my brothers... I dunno... things overall for me are just weird. I'm always wanting what I can't have, and then when I do get what I want I'm not satisfied. UGH! Plus, on top of all this crud I'm sick... I hate being sick, and most of the time I hate having the center of the world on me, but I just wish things were made easier. Yeah, I'm ranting and I'm being selfish too. I hate it when I act like this too. I just can't wait to finally be with family. I miss them more than anything else in this world.