So, there have been several moments where I keep wondering as to why I am here in the frozen north... or rather TEH BURG!!!! I have no job, I miss my friend Kevin like crazy mad, and haven't gotten a letter in over two months... I think I may die! Kim seems to always be upset with something, or asking me why I don't talk! I don't think she realizes that I really don't talk as much as I used to unless I really have something to say. I went to the temple this morning (16th) for the open house... that part of my day was absolutely amazing! Then, coming home is kinda where my day started to take a down hill turn rapidly! I fell flat on my back, and boy did it hurt! Now, not only does my back and butt hurt, but it seems as though I ache all over! It's funny cause I'm writing this as if someone would read it, but yet... no one really knows about this blog! MEH! Yeah, so that went wrong... I ended up going back to sleep about 11:30? and that was rather nice until about 2 when Brian called and it woke me up... but then his phone died. I really am so confused about him, but not all at the same time & I absolutely hate it... I truly do feel safe around him, but in many ways... only because he's like a brother to me! Anyway... I guess I just put all this stuff into my head because I miss Kevin so much! I have no job right now... and every time I think about getting one... someone tells me I shouldn't work at that place... I really wish I could just some how get to Idaho Falls every day & work at Sylvan there! Chances are I'd get hired on the spot, but no... that's not possible... because I'm a freakin' idiot with no license and no car! I hate my life at this current moment... over all except for going to the temple and fasting with Brian, Jessica, and James... my day SUCKED LIKE HELL!!!!! I HATED IT! And now... I have to go to bed... so, I can wake up in the morning and organize all of my crap for stupid clean checks tomorrow night... I wish at times I could just curl up in a ball and die! I seriously at this moment just hate my life! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I haven't had this feeling in a while... I wonder why it's coming out now! Weirder.. anyways, I better get some sleep finally!
LATERS & GOODNIGHT
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